Monday, February 21, 2005

Where in the world is Carmen Sandiego....

Where is everybody? Why hasn't my family been blogging in a while? Is the rave over? Is it "uncool" now? Am I the only one left? Just wondering where in the world everyone is....





Saturday, February 19, 2005

Movie critiques

Just watched "Garden State." It definitely would've been a good movie if you take out the entire beginning and one scene in the middle. It was kinda strange and random (which interests me), but the bad scenes and language were almost too much. There were a few funny parts though.

The opposite was the movie I saw earlier this evening (yeah, it was movie night for me), "Raise Your Voice," with Hillary Duff. Very cute. It was about music and overcoming your fears to do what you were made to do, etc. I liked it because it was about music (reminded me of the "music building" days!) and pursuing those dreams...

So, there you have my movie critiques for the day. Tomorrow I'm going to Mt. P to see App play C of C with my fellow SC Kornegays. :) GO APP!!





Friday, February 18, 2005

Something new

I decided to change things up a bit with my blog. The green was nice, but it wasn't exactly me. Sometimes I feel like I get in this rut of being who I think everyone wants me to be. And how does that apply to my blog?? Well... I just want to make sure I'm expressing myself in my writing (just as much as in life) as exactly who I am. I grew up with a lot of insecurities, always worried about what people thought of me. Then in college I started to realize those insecurities. Now it's time to start living differently - more alive and to my full potential, no matter what the circumstances are. Kinda goes along with my song "Thrive" (see Jan. 23rd entry). I made a list in my journal of things I'd do if I didn't worry so much about what people thought. I think I should start working on some of them...

So here you are with something new from me. Hope you like what I have to offer. If not, it's okay. I'm just being me.





Wednesday, February 16, 2005

I am thankful

I feel like a lot has been going on lately. Sorry I haven't updated in a while. I do want to mention some people who I am so thankful for! First of all, I want to welcome my cousin Richard back home from being in Iraq! I thank God that he made it home safetly. Pray for his wife, that she will return home safetly too. I also want to thank God for the friends I have in Charleston. (You know who you are :) ) It's been a long road to finding a place to fit in here. It's hard to start over completely after college in a new city - state, even! But I have seen God's faithfulness to me over the years, and He has never stopped taking care of me. He has given me great friends here, who are a source of love and comfort to me! I am thankful!

One of my dear friends here sent me the lyrics to a Bebo Norman song, which really spoke to my heart and encouraged me. It's called "Borrow Mine." I want to share the lyrics with you:

Take my hand
And walk with me awhile
Because it seems your smile
Has left you
And don't give in
When you fall apart
And your broken heart
Has failed you
I'll set a light up
On a hilltop
To show you my love
For this world to see

You can borrow mine
When your hope is gone
You can borrow mine
When you can't go on
Cause the world will not defeat you
When we're side by side
When your faith is hard to find
You can borrow mine
You can borrow mine

God, I just want to say thank you. Thank you for being my Truest, most faithful Friend through all these years. Thank you for old friendships, for nothing will replace them. Thank you for new friendships, for nothing is more refreshing. And thank you the most for my family. They are the people you chose to be in the center of my life. Thank you.





Wednesday, February 09, 2005

A little inspiration, please!

It's been a quiet day at work (PTL!) and I've been letting my imagination get away with me (as you can probably see from my last entry). But I've been thinking about my creative side - how i love to write, sing, make things... I want to DO something with my creativity! Ever since I was little I've wanted to write a book. I had a thousand stories in my head at a time! Work seems to have gotten in the way of some of it. But I'm determined not to let it anymore! If I want to do those things so badly, I need to just DO them! It's time to just sit down and write a book! It's time to start singing more at different functions! It's time to make any and every thing I set my mind to make!

So, in light of all these things, I was wondering if I could get some feedback from y'all. I want to write a book, but I start something and then fizzle out before I get into it. I think it's because I don't really know what to write about. So, for those of you out there who love to read (and especially those who love to write) let me know what you would like to read about. I think I need some ideas to spark my interest, and something that would keep my interest, something I know people would want to read. For you writers, give me some pointers! Is this a problem for you, or is it just me? You can be crazy with your ideas too, I don't care. I just need inspiration! :) (I will not consider any ideas that are rude or distasteful. So for those of you who don't know me, know that!)

Thanks for the help! I appreciate it!




Fairytales

I want to share with you something I wrote several months back. Most of you who read my blog, know (or knew at one time) what it was like to grow up with brothers and sister and cousins, and enjoyed playing "make-believe." This is a little story inspired by those precious memories and a heart that still longs for those days. I think it creates a picture of something we should all be reminded of and hold close to our hearts.

“Fairytales: An Otherworldly Adventure”
By Carey Kornegay
Dedicated to my sisters with love

It’s one of those nights where I wish I were in a fairytale. Or something that’s surreal. Not unreal, but definitely not normal for today’s standards. I want to be swept away, caught up in something so alive and crazy-beautiful that I lose all sense of what once was. My body longs for it. My soul was made for it.

I am lacking. I look through the looking glass and see it far from reach. I pick up a book—Alice in Wonderland, Peter Pan, or The Secret Garden—and I remember the delight I had in them as a child. I could create those stories on my own. I was there. It was real. I wanted to be the princess that the glass slipper fit on. I wanted to be the sleeping beauty awakened by a kiss. I wanted to fly away to Never Land and live in the childhood paradise. Then I could. But now?

Life as the world knows it weighs heavily on people. “Fairytales are for kids.” Oh, to be a child again! “But you must grow up, get a job, and be in the real world.” The “real world.” What is that anyways? It is a world we have created and called real. We are so disillusioned by the world we created that it is what seems real now. We have put away our toys, books, and childhood fantasies, therefore putting away our souls. We snuff out any thought that seems close to dreams, desires, adventure, or fairytales because they do not fit in with what the world asks for now. Degree, career, marriage, a house, a car, a dog, a kid—this is how your life should look. If not, then you don’t have it all together. Something must be wrong in there. You need to do it this way, try this idea, anything to put you “back on the right track.”

As these things are being ingrained in me, my heart is asking, “Where do I fit in with all this?” And I find no place for it. My soul, too, is drifting, farther and farther away from the things that my mind and body have mechanically been doing for years. I search for a home for them through other things offered to me. I call friends or family, but still my heart is not satisfied and my soul is lonely. Then one night in a bookstore I pick up a childhood classic and start flipping through the pages. Suddenly, I remember the way my heart and soul were caught up in each adventure as a little girl. And I long for that again, to be a part of a fairytale, stepping into its pages and becoming the lead character. I remember looking for the secret garden that I was sure was hidden in my back yard. I remember making red sparkling shoes that I believed were Dorothy’s ruby slippers. I remember dressing up as the Disney’s fox “Maid Marian” for Halloween and delighting over the fact that everyone knew it was she without even asking. It was surreal; not unreal, but definitely not normal. It was beautiful. My heart and soul were alive.

What I did not know was that these stories did not create the fairytale found within them. They were sparked by something created within the hearts of the authors, even if they themselves did not know it. That creation within the authors is a longing for an otherworldly adventure: a fairytale. It is the same creation in all hearts alike. Yet their way of expressing this desire is to write it in a story fashion. They get so caught up in their stories that they are living them themselves; therefore, finding, in a sense, what their hearts have longed for. It speaks to all of us—especially as children because they have not been disillusioned by the “real world”—because what has been created in us cannot be “uncreated.” As much as we try to put it away with our childhood fantasies, it is still there.

These stories are not bad. Yet they are only an image, a picture of the real adventure our hearts were made for. The thing the world does not understand is that we were made to fly to Never Land. We were made to have the glass slipper fit us. We were made to wake up to a kiss. That is why these stories speak to us. Our hearts find the home that was lost within the “real world” in these stories.

So where is this ability to fly, a glass slipper to even try on, and the key to the secret garden? If those things are what are real, then why can’t we find them?

“Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.” Jeremiah 33:3

“You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” Jeremiah 29:13

“Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 37:4

The greatest adventure is found by being swept away with God. When you seek him he will give you what your heart desires. He made you with those desires to be caught up in something surreal because he knew that only he had that key. Only he could take you on the adventure your heart was made for. What we think is real is only holding us back. He is our greatest love. He holds out the glass slipper, just for us, knowing that what he has for us will fit perfectly. Just don’t let the stepmother keep you locked away for too long. He is our happy thought that makes us fly to Never Land (and Jesus is the fairy dust). He is the prince that wakes us up from a deep slumber with a kiss, he just had to fight the dragon and cut through the vines to get to us. He is the key to the most beautiful secret garden we could ever imagine. He is the home our hearts were looking for all throughout Oz. And there is no place like it.

All I have is that tiny spark, stirred by a book of fairytales. All I know is that I long to be caught up in an adventure apart from the world I know. What I hadn’t realized before is that God had been calling me through those stories, through the make-believe I used to play with my sisters. He is saying, “Yes, yes it’s those things, and so much more. Will you let me take you there?”

So, will you?





Friday, February 04, 2005

Update

Okay, so you guys gotta read my friend Jamie's blog. She is really cool and went to College of Charleston. Now she works at MUSC (Medical University of South Carolina) and gets to experience some crazy conversations with people on the phone. Check her site out to get the latest story (hopefully she won't mind)!

More about me... It's been really busy with work lately. Last night we had to be "security guards" and park cars in the freezing cold for the basketball game (which we won). This is definitely not in my job description, but we're doing this to help out. Not to complain, but sometimes I wonder if that was what I got my college degree for...??? But a cool thing did happen: I met someone from Greensboro! Her last name is Bell or Dell... I don't remember! But she had heard of my dad!

I'm on duty this weekend, which means I can't leave campus. Except for Saturday I'm taking a group of RAs to a conference in Columbia. I could definitely use your prayers this weekend because I'll be tired from being on duty and held responsible for the students on the conference (plus, driving a 15 passenger van)!

Well, that's about it for an update on me. Hopefully soon I'll have some pics and more excitement on here. I feel like it's been kinda boring. Let me know if you have any ideas.





Wednesday, February 02, 2005

Encouragement

Here's some encouragement a friend at Seacoast (my church) gave me last night:

Proverbs 13:12
"Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life
."

and...

Proverbs 16:9
"In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps (and makes them sure!)."


The first verse especially speaks to me... I feel like my hope as been deferred (delayed). I long for my dreams to be fulfilled. But then the second verse is convicting. I can plan all I want to, but God knows what is best for me. It's just so hard to trust Him at times.

I hope these verses encouraged your heart as it did mine!