Wednesday, April 27, 2005

God brought me flowers!

So as many of you know, it's been sooo crazy at work for me. I get home every night and just collapse. I feel numb and find myself asking God to please show me glimpses of his love throughout the day because I need it to go on like this. Well, I want to tell you a story...

My day consists of constantly working on floor charts, moving girls into this room, changing that suite out to a different one, shifting a whole floor of girls to a different building. And the paper work... piles and piles... Every change I make has to be put down on forms and put into the computer. I have to keep track of the total of how many are signed up every single day. And believe me, it changes constantly. Well, I have girls coming to me 24/7, freaking out about wanting this room with this girl, or wanting an empty suite. At this point, you could probably guess that there's hardly any way I can grant everyone's request. Especially when people come by, or call, or stop me every time I walk across campus to sign up for their beloved room. Even when I'm eating dinner in the so-called safetly of my apartment students call me asking me about it. It's really getting hysterical when I go to church just to get off campus and escape (and worship God of course), and someone from CSU is THERE, and they get my attention and ask about signing up for a room!!!!

Okay, that's not even the story yet. My story starts when these four freshmen girls stopped by a couple of weeks ago and asked if they could get a suite together for next semester. You know the routine... Obviously there are no empty suites laying around. I tell them that it probably wouldn't happen, but that I would put their names on a list and do the very best I could do to work it out. These girls are so sweet. They said over and over that they know I'm doing so much and that it's okay, but if it was at all possible they would like that very much. Well, they stopped by last week just to check and see if anything changed. I told them the situation was the same, but that I would still try. Well, yesterday I realized a room opened up and if I moved this girl here, and that girl there, and called these people to see if they wanted to move here, then maybe it'd work out. So I worked on it all afternoon and this morning. Finally it all fell into place. I called the girls and told them the good news. They were very happy. Little did I know how happy... A couple of hours later, all four of them showed up with a bouquet of flowers and a bag of candy! They said they wanted me to know how much it meant to them for me to help them! I almost cried! The first thing that came to my mind was, "God loves me and sees me. He wants me to know that my hard work is not in vain."

So, if you have never believed that God can literally send you flowers, now you should! And even when it seems like nothing you ever do is noticed or cared about, God notices and cares so much! What an answer to prayer and the highlight of my week! All the yuckiness isn't so bad to face after all...

Thursday, April 21, 2005

As minutes drag by...

I am thankful for days like these. Really. In the midst of chaos and confusion at the end of a college semester, I cherish when a quiet day slips up on me. Of course when it is quiet, my mind starts to wander and think of the days when I will soon be seeing the ethnic beauty of Scotland and England. And then I feel as if each minute could not go by any faster. I look at my watch every five minutes and it is still three hours before work is over for the day! And this is just a day! I have six months to go before I leave the country on my tour.

And then there are days when I don't even have five minutes to write a thank you note for a supporter or mail out a letter about my sponsorship. I'm going here and there and everywhere with work, signing people up for rooms, getting RA stuff ready for next year, and of course fighting the boss battles. ;) I get in bed after midnight and just lay there with my thoughts running around all over the place. I wonder if I'll ever get anything done before I leave.

I guess being busy will come and go, but what I really wish is that I could be a little more content in where I am. I want to savor the time I have left in Charleston, because I don't know if I'll be back or not. I don't want to go through each day daydreaming about my future instead of focusing on what's at hand. I could miss out on what God has for me yet to learn before I leave.

More than anything, I pray for an open mind and a open heart. I pray for eyes to see truth in my chaos. I pray for endurance as these minutes drag by...

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Sorry it's been a while

I know I haven't updated in a while, but it's been really crazy here. Between working on my support letters for my trip, going to Raleigh last weekend, working on "room signups" and RA interviews at work, there hasn't been time for anything! Yeah, my brain is basically frazzled. It's okay though. Summer is fast approaching, and before we know it it'll be fall and time to leave for Europe! (Wow, that's so weird!) But what to do afterwards is the question... Stay in Charleston? Move to Raleigh with my college friends? Did someone mention Nashville?? And I've always wanted to go to Colorado... Yeah, I know, I'm a big dreamer - but hey, it's allowed! Anything is possible at this point in my life. I'm not married or settled somewhere, so I have the freedom to do these things. Now I'm just waiting, resting, and trusting. It'll all fall into place in due time.

Here's a theological question for you that's been on my mind during this process. Is there one plan that God has for your life that He wants you to pursue (doesn't have to mean you follow it)? Or is it that you can't do anything out of His "will" since you are His child, so chose whatever you want to do? These things lead to other questions, so I know that to answer one of those would mean you'd have to think a little bigger, but that's okay. It seems I've been confronted with these things since I've been in the "I don't know where I'm going after this job" phase. I know what I believe - what God has shown me to be true in my life - but I don't want to be close minded. I'm interested in knowing what you believe about this. Feel free to comment or email me or ask questions. This is just for discussion only. Thought it'd be interesting. :)

Well, that's about it! Hope to hear from y'all soon!

Saturday, April 02, 2005

Cooper River Bridge Run

Hey to all you peeps out there! I am at my cousin's house in MT P and we just finished the bridge "run" this morning. It was a lot of fun! Every year Charleston holds a run over the Cooper River Bridge. Thousands of people all over the world show up to either run or walk over the bridge. This is the 28th year they've done it - and the last year it will be done over this bridge, since the new one is almost done. So... last night after the CSU formal (I'll try to have pics of that later), I came to my family's house and stayed the night since there would be no way to get into MT P in the early morning. So we all got up this morning and got ready to go. Unfortunately it was raining when we left, but it cleared up as we started. My cousin John and my uncle ran, while all of us ladies opted for the walk. Although the sun came out, it was quite windy and a little chilly. But a lot of fun. When we finally made it over and into Charleston (after about two hours), we were famished. Thankfully, there were stands everywhere with fruit and water! Now we're all back and resting (*sigh*). My other aunt and uncle are here from out of town (I haven't seen them in forever) and we're all spending the afternoon together. Anyways... The bridge run was a really neat experience and I'm so glad I did it!

P.S. Watch Carolina play tonight in the final four!!!